Mothers Day....

Mothers Day is a tricky one for me.... I am lucky enough to have 3 little boys running around, loving on me and filling my day full of love but its a bit sad for me also. The one little boy who is missing oh how I wish he were here to... also this mothers day I would have been blissfully pregnant but plans weren't what we had imagined and so I wasn't. Its a balancing act trying to be super happy so the ones that are here aren't sad I slap on my happy face, and do my best to enjoy the day with one missing its a bit harder. I know Kael wouldn't want me to be sad either so I take extra special care to ensure I soak up the kiddos that are here and snuggle them an extra lot!  The boys and Layne are so sweet though they went out of their way to make my day!!! Layne picked up a second job about  a week ago to get us some extra money so we can pay some little things off before we buy our home so that we have less debt so he had to work yesterday morning but he made the morning oh so sweet before he left. When the boys woke up they were SO excited to give me their gifts they had made at school. Oh how those little gifts made my day. Stefon wrote the cutest note at school... some of the sentences were jumbled but I cant tell you how much my heart swelled. Dax gave me a plant  in a pot that he painted and wrote a simple note it made me smile so big and Layne gave me a bunch of new picture frames for my desk at work so I can update woo hoo I was so happy!!  We spent the day playing games, riding bikes and playing with sidewalk chalk. My mom came over to spend some time with us. I laid Landon down for a nap and Dax and I headed to the cemetery to have a mothers day visit with Kael. Daxton and I had a lovely time he sent Kael a balloon, we took a windmill and he and I had the best little chat while we were there. Daxton remembers every little detail of Kael. We talked about when he was alive, when he was sick, when he passed away and about the funeral. It amazes me the things he still remembers. I love that we were able to have that time together and chat. I think its just what he and I needed.  When Layne got off we headed over to his moms house for dinner and dessert and some time with the family. We stayed a while then headed home for some just us family time. Layne got the movie we bought a zoo and we watched it as a family and had snacks. We all loved the movie and had a blast spending time together. It was a lovely day. I am so grateful that I have the chance to be a mommy. Each of my kiddos have taught me so much and helped me to grow and become better. I am forever grateful to heavenly father that he trusted me enough to give me these sweet boys and that I get to be there mom!! I spent lots of time reflecting yesterday on all of the blessings that I have!! There is no better job in the world than being a mom!