Never taking one single breath for granted.... enjoying the journey one day at a time!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

MRW Live, Laugh Breath Event

On Saturday I was able to meet an amazing woman and attend an amazing event. Kendra lost a beautiful little girl just shy of 5 months old to SMARD a condition very similar to Kaels. Kaels they never were able to give a name to but it was similar in the respiratory aspect as well as not being able to swallow or breath on their own. Her and her husband too went through a roller coaster like we did trying to figure it out. Kenzies first birthday would have been Sunday so her mom put togteher this amazing event to raise money for the Gwendolyn Strong Foundation where they do research so they can try and find a cure so no one else has to go through this nightmare of loosing a child so early on to this evil disease. These kids were so brave and Strong and put up such a fight. I was able to volunteer for an hour and a half at the tattoo booth then I got to play with my hubby and kids, my mom, my brothers 3 kids and my sisters 2 kids and my brother and sister in law. There was so much to do tattoos, face painting, ball toss, bouncy houses, cotton candy, snow cones, hot dogs, chips, drinks, a silent auction, raffle and a kenzie boutique. She also had scales and tails there, a magician, belly dances and music. At one point during the night we let a ton of balloons go and listend to a song that was written for another child lost to SMA. I couldn't help but think of Kenzie and Kael. So beautiful, Strong and amazing. I broke a bit and shed some tears but all for a good cause. I cant wait to hear how much Kendra earned but I am sure it was alot! Layne was so happy he won the bid for the silent auction for a BYU basket full of cougar stuff. He was in heaven even though we didn't win the WII from the raffle. Overall the night was amazing and I am grateful for the chance to help out even though it was only in a small way. Here are some pictures from our fun!

Testing for Karate.

So Daxton and Stefon tested on Saturday for their next step in karate. They were testing to become orange tigers. They did such a good job. They have to get up in front of a bunch of on lookers and do all the moves they have learned over the last 8 weeks. Being so little it takes lots of courage and confidence which they are also learning about. They did an amazing job and both of them were able to move up. They were so proud of themselves and I am proud of them as well. They are such amazing little boys and they learn so much and grow up so fast!! I am proud to be their mommy and love that they are able to participate in things like this!! Good job boys!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Flash Backs....

Man today and yesterday have been hard for me. I seem to be on this rollercoaster and most days its doable but today and yesterday have been hard. My head is spinning, I wanna crawl out of this hole and find that it was all a bad dream. I want to laugh at myself and say silly girl how could you have dreamed something so horrible but then I look around and see that its still real this is my life!! I had an amazing little boy who the lord thought he needed more than I did. I see these pictures in my head of that horrible morning and how awful I felt trying to dig inside of me and figure out what I had done wrong. What could I have done better. Why didnt I do this or could I have done that. My head spins and spins almost out of control... I see his sweet face, I feel him in my arms and picture whatd hed look like today. I needed to feel him today, I got down his memory box got out his little things he was so small. I held his hand braces in mine, read his poster from the hospital, looked at his little cap and the pictures of him and how to do his exercises to stretch him out and feel better, I looked through his picture book, went back and read his obituary I think Ive read it 3 times today. I read through the book from his funeral and watched his movie of his short little life that we played at the funeral. I cried and cried thank goodness my mom has my kids today. I don't like to break down when they are here. I have to be strong for them. I know that ill get out of this slump but today it seems extra thick of darkness. Why oh why do some days have to be so hard. I know that people say everything happens for a reason I wish I could figure this one out. He was to little we didn't have enough time with him.... I miss him so much. I hope your ok in heaven Kael. Mommy misses you so much and wishes you were here to hold and love. You mean the world to me little buddy. Even though we have fun days and happy times your still always on my mind. I hope I do enough to make you proud and I hope you playing in heaven with all your angel friends. I love you to the moon and back. Mommy

Summer Fun!!

I love summer! We get to play outside and go to lots of different parks and play and swim and have fun. Summer is my favorite I love the warm sunshine and the happiness that surrounds. The last couple weeks we've been going to lots of parks for play dates. Liberty Park, the splash pad in Herriman the rainbow park by my house just lots of fun places. I wanted to post a few pics from the fun weve had so far. I'm glad to have the opportunity to have this fun with my kids and friends and sister!! If I haven't said it already I LOVE SUMMER!!

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


This is so much fun!! I got this idea from another blog that I read and thought it'd be fun to try it out!! There is this really fun blog called http://www.5qs4u.blogspot.com/ this really awesome lady started it and she has you answer 5 questions about yourself then spotlights you on her blog for a day. I am a bit behind on blogging but I was sponsored on 7/9 so you should hop over to her blog and check it out!! Its lots of fun and a great way to get to know people!! I hope you enjoy reading my answers and play along as well!! Hope everyone is having a great day!!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

July 4th!!

We had a busy but fun filled 4th of July weekend. On Friday we went over to my friends for a BBQ, and swimming. Saturday the boys went to rocky mountain raceway for the races and fireworks and Sunday we went back to my friends to have more yummy BBQ, more fun swimming and fireworks of our own. Its so fun to watch the kids get bigger and more comfortable with water. They all loved the fireworks even Landon he was bouncing up and down as they made noise and lit up. It was so fun. I am so grateful for my family and friends. They made it possible to have a fun memorable weekend. I love my family with all my heart and am glad that we got to spend quality time together. Here are a few pics from the fun!!

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