Id be crazy if I wasnt thankful for him.....

These last few days I cant get you off of my mind... Ive been thinking about how much you taught me, how much fun we had, how scared I was, how I know not to take anything for granted now. How much your daddy and your brothers miss you and that were not the only ones who think of you. I need to get out to your grave and decorate it! We have lots of Thanksgiving things to put out! I love you so much Kael and am so thankful you chose us. How did we get so lucky to be blessed by something as AMAZING as you? I rethink about everything that happened, you were so wanted, so loved... so missed! I see other kids your age and try to envision you and what you'd be doing. What trials would you still have, I just picture your older brothers helping me take care of you how sweet and tender they were with you! I love you so much sweet boy. Thank you for being you, for being so strong, heroic and hanging on as long as you could. Your sweet memories take me back and put me back in those days. I'm trying hard to remember only the good, not the bad crappy stuff. Thanksgiving has a whole new meaning for me now. What a day to remind us to be thankful rather than busy in our every day lives. I love you to the moon and back sweet boy! What I wouldn't give for a few more minutes, a few more days. I'm thankful that I know your in gods hands though. I pray you have the biggest feast in heaven! I love you to the moon and back sweet boy! I am so thankful for YOU!! You made me a better person and I strive to continue to be better every day. Happy Thanksgiving Kael!