Never taking one single breath for granted.... enjoying the journey one day at a time!

Monday, February 14, 2011

LOVE........ My jumbled view on love

So lots of posts this past week on what love really means... Love is simply an amazing thing. Where would we all be without love? I love so many people and have so much love in return. I love my hubby, my kids, my BLM's who have helped me learn so much, I love many friends, parents, siblings, extended family I am truly blessed. They say you don't know what true love is until it is lost...I so believe that. When Kael passed away my heart was shattered into a million pieces, I couldn't think, breath, move I was crushed. I found out who my true friends were and who would stick by me through the end. Loosing him I found out what true unconditional love is. I think I slowly started learning it as he was in the hospital fighting for his life, we never knew from 1 minute to the next what our lives would hold and where we would be in the end. Every time we visited and held him, my heart grew bigger and my love grew stronger, he was such a fighter I held on to everything he taught me and have tried to portray these things in the way I live my life every day. I try not to take anything for granted I'm thankful for every day I have and all the blessings I have been given. My heart is still broken it slowly heals each day but will never be whole again. I do my best every day to exemplify what love truly is. I'm thankful to each of you who have stuck with me through it all, I know I'm not always all put together but I do my best and try hard each day. Today was Valentines Day with Layne being gone till Friday we are going to celebrate this weekend. So I woke up this morning, gave the kids their presents took them to school and headed to the cemetery. When Layne left after last weekend I slipped a little sup rise bag in his suitcase for today's special occasion. When I got to the cemetery it was a little windy but sunny and beautiful. I got all the things out I had brought for Kael and got his stone all decorated and then sat and talked to him for a while. These last few days I have felt him near and I just wanted to spill my guts. It was a nice break to be able to sit and chat and share in the holiday spirit with him. I sent him some balloons blew a kiss to heaven and continued on with my day. What I wouldn't give to hold him a little longer, but since I cant ill do what I can to make this world a little bit better place. I hope you all had a good day, I hope it was gentle on you and that you felt love from someone else today!! Happy Valentines Day!!


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The Johnson Crew said...

It sounds like you had a good day and that this weekend will be great. Hang in there.

Jill said...

Tears reading this because it is so beautiful!

Tana said...

Beautiful post girl! You are a wonderful person who is full of love. Love ya tons Brig! I'm almost done with the blanket. I'm hoping to have it finished by next Monday. Possibly would you be available to come and get it sometime next week? My grandma is coming to visit on Monday but the other days are pretty free, except for driving carpool of course:-)

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