So as I said before Easter this year was hard for me. I had so many emotions the whole weekend. Of course I was happy for the kids but also very sad and angry at times. I would think that loosing Kael would get easier by now but to be honest this year was so much harder.... I hate the fact that he isn't here that Landon will never meet Kael. We got Landon out of the car at the cemetery for the first time and he was so cute at the grave babbling away I only hope he was talking to his brother... I hate that our family pictures are missing someone and that the only way I feel we get a real family picture is when were at the cemetery where Kaels little body rests. Sometimes I have to pinch myself to know that this is all real... this is really my life I have a baby buried in a small little blue casket with teddy bears and a few things inside to be with him. We decorated the grave with eater baskets, a lamb and windmill. Someone also left a little rose plant which was very sweet. It makes me happy to know were not the only ones that think of Kael. Well enough babbling for today. Kales birthday is one week from today so later this week I will post his story because on his birthday post I want it to be about his special birthday celebrations.... Love you Kael always thinking about you!!