I am married to an amazing man we celebrated our 9 year anniversarry in April. We have 6 amazing children 4 here on earth with us and 2 angels in heaven (Kael who passed away at 5 months 3 weeks old and an early miscarriage baby at 7 weeks old. Just taking life one day at a time. Never take anything for granted!
UGGH last night was a hard one. Its not real often that I am brought to a waterfall of tears anymore but when it hits it sure hits hard. Sometimes its hard watching those around us get everything that we have ever hoped for a "complete family" to see them living their "perfect dream life". We dream of our family being one way and one day its all torn away from us. You would think 3 years later it wouldn't be so hard. But alas it is. I find myself wishing we still had Kael that our family was "complete". I know that we have Kael always in our hearts and that he is near watching from heaven what I wouldn't give to have him here in our arms right now at this very moment. I dream of him, hope for him and wish for him. I know it will be a long time until my wishes come true and sometimes its so hard to face that. I pray that he is happy in heaven. That he looks down on us and is proud. We are trying so hard to do the things we need to in order to be with him in heaven. I picture his sweet face playing in heaven, free of worries and pain. I picture him dancing and running, being FREE. Here on earth he would have never had that but we would have done our best to keep him comfortable and at peace. The gaping hole in my heart is a big one. I miss him so much. People don't seem to get that, they expect that its been 3 years and that I should have "moved" on by now. I hate to break the news but you don't just "get over" loosing a child. The pain is still raw at times, not as much as it used to because slowly I'm taping the pieces of my heart back together but it will never be the same... I just wish that others could see and understand that. So here I sit wishing, waiting and hoping one day we will all be "complete" again.
04-12-08 to 10-04-08 Such a sweet boy and is missed every day! Not a day goes by that we dont think of Kael. We are living our lives the best as possible in hopes to be together with him again one day.
Daxton 7 such a sweet little boy!! He is in the 2nd grade and so smart. He stuns me everyday with the things that he knows and is learning. He is so loving, patient and calm. We are lucky to call him our own.
Stefon is 6. Hes very sweet but can be mischevious as well! He is in the first grade this year and is excelling at school. We love him to pieces.
Landon our rainbow baby. He turned 3 on the 12 of August. He is so sweet and has such a spunky personality. He melts my heart and has brought some sunshine back into our lives.
Tiara joined our family 4/2/13 she is so sweet and the perfect little addition. We love her so much and thank god every day for her!!