Kaels Memorial Page

This is Kaels Memorial Page. It is in a book that will travel to many cities in the world along with other babies pictures that have gone before us to soon. Many thanks to Krsite at Acnhored By Hope who put this page together. Much love to my fellow BLM's and lots of floaty kisses to our babies in heaven. Much love Kael I hope you catch my floaty kisses that I sent up today!! Mommy loves you to the moon and back!

Visit with a special friend.

On Friday I got to go on a very fun lunch date. I met up with a fellow BLM by the name of Kendra. Her and I have met before when I helped at her MRW Live Event and we have emailed back and forth but never been 1 on 1. I was super nervous and super excited all at the same time. I wanted to badly to talk to someone who actually understands what its like to loose a baby but also to be there for her so she could talk to. So we met up at lunch in Bountiful at Cafe Rio and chatted for a while then went up to Kaels grave and sat and talked for a good 2 hours. It was so amazing to talk to her and learn from her. I hope I helped her out to. We are going to do it again and visit Kenzie this time. They are buried in cemeteries about 30 mins from each other so we ran out of time to do both. I'm super excited to do it again. We sent Kael and Kenzie balloons and put some decorations on Kaels grave. I found this little autumn thing and Daxton sent Kael a elephant. Kendra brought a windmill it looked great. Daxton was so sweet he also sent a little bunny for Kendra to put on Kenzies grave and I gave her the same autumn ornament for the grave. It was such am amazing experience. I loved it alot and am so grateful we had the chance to do it. I cant wait to do it again. If you want to visit Kendras blog its kendraandryanwebster.blogspot.com. She is so amazing and I am so thankful that she would meet up with me and visit my sweet son!! Much love to Kendra Kenzie and Kael today!!

October field trip

So this month for Stefons preschool class we went to the grocery store for the class field trip. It was lots of fun to go with the kids. We got a tour of the store, they got chicken from the deli, cookies from the bakery they got to watch the lady make frosting flowers and then we got to see the meat counter. We got to go back in the back to the really cold fridge and freezer the kids sure thought that was fun. When we were all done the kids got coloring books from the lady at the service desk. Another fun field trip and lots of fun memories. Here are a few pictures.

Halloween 2010

Halloween was busy but fun this year. Saturday we took the kids to the Hogle Zoo for BOO at the zoo they got lots of candy and free kids meals to lots of places, we then went around visiting family members and trick or treating. It was alot of fun for the kids and fun for us to see the kids so excited and happy!! Both Friday and Saturday night after the boys were in bed Layne and I went to parties. We had lots of fun and hung out with lots of friends. On Sunday we went out to the cemetery. The boys had each picked out a pumpkin for Kaels grave and sweet Daxton had drawn a picture to take to his baby brother. It was so sweet we got out of the car and he ran over he held it above the grave and said look Kael I drew this for you. I love you and miss you. Hes such a sweet kid. On the drive home the song "you've had a bad day" came on and Daxton said mom I love this song because it helps me think of baby Kael. He sure misses his brother. I wish he didn't have to deal with such a loss. Poor kids breaks my heart for them. All in all it was a great Halloween though. If only we didn't have that missing hole..... Here are some pictures from all of our fun! Hope your Halloween was happy as well!!

Halloween school parties.

So the past few days have been Halloween parties at school. Stefons preschool party was on Wednesday and Daxtons on Thursday. At Stefons school they have 2 teachers so they didn't need any help. So the moms just went in the morning to drop the kids off we got to take pictures of the class then we were on our way home. I was a little bummed I didn't get to help this year but that's what the teacher wanted. On Thursday it was Daxtons school parade and party. I am a room mom in Daxtons class so I got to help plan and be at the party. We had so much fun!! The kids played Halloween bowling and musical chairs, they made Halloween bracelets and played pin the nose on the pumpkin and the final station was decorating pumpkin cookies and getting drinks. The school also had the parade before the party. It was a blast!! Daxtons teacher is so nice she invited Stefon to come and join in the fun. He thought he was such a big kid to be attending the Kindergarten party. I love being able to help and be apart of the kids education. It was a fun day. Here are a few pictures from our fun!!

MISSING

Oh how the cold weather makes me miss my sweet boy!! Its snowing here in Utah and has been off and on for the last 2 days. I know its morbid to think this way but I hate to think that hes freezing under the cold frozen ground. I know that hes warm up in heaven but the mommy in me struggles to feel that way all the time. I was looking through all of his pictures the other day and just had to post a few. He was so sweet, strong and amazing. Such a fighter so that he could stay with us as long as possible. I'm so grateful he was such a fighter but I sure do miss him alot these last few days. I always miss him but the longing for him and hurting for him has been more the past few days. I hope he knows how much I love and adore him... my sweet angel in heaven. I love you Kael I hope your warm and safe and having a beautiful day with your sweet angel friends. Give them a kiss from their mommies I'm sending a kiss to you!! Love you always!!

Pumpkin Patch

It was so fun on Monday to go to the pumpkin patch with Stefons preschool class. I love being involved and being able to go to their field trips and help with parties. On Monday we went to this cute little patch that has a tipee in the middle. We all went inside for some Halloween stories and some cupcakes and juice. Then we all walked around and saw all the scary things and the pumpkins. Finally at the end each child got to pick a pumpkin to take home. Stefon was so sweet he asked if he could pick 2 one for him and one for baby Kael to paint and put on his grave. I of course said yes and paid for the extra pumpkin. All in all it was a fun field trip and the kids had a blast.