This is week two of the Walking with You series is about the waiting period... after we found out about Kael the not knowing was the hardest part!! We had multiple follow up appointments, stress tests, ultrasounds, an amniocenteses, lots of waiting, praying and trying to be patient... I learned alot about patience during this time. I prayed harder than I ever had, pleaded with god. I promised him that I would do whatever it took for this little boy. I prayed that his life would be a good one and that he wouldn't have to deal with much pain. I googled so many things! Every time they mentioned something it might be I would look it up and try to understand what we were up against and how I could best prepare for my new little boy coming soon. I read for hours, looking for people with similar stories, trying to find out what we could do to make his life the best it could be. Hours of worries, fears, what ifs planning out our new lives. We talked for hours on what we would do Layne and I grew more than I ever thought possible in the following 14 weeks. We prayed, begged pleaded with the lord to help us make the right decisions to let us know what we needed to do for the little life growing inside of me. We wanted to make all the best decisions possible and bring this little life into the world knowing we would do our best and fight for his little life. Those were some of the longest nights, longest weeks ever. With lots of praying though I felt comfort in knowing we were doing all that we could and that the lord would help us to make the decisions we would need to make.
*Prayer asks for this week... please pray for little Tripps family who are making the hardest decisions of their lives right now. Little Tripp returned to heaven and is out of his pain now. I hope you all have a blessed week. I'm excited to read more on each of your stories. Don't forget the blog link is http://blog.sufficientgraceministries.org/
Monday, January 16, 2012
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I googled a lot myself during our pregnancy with Thomas. With the twins, I didn't know about Google yet! ;)
Those days of waiting were truly a day by day clinging walk for us....and it's surreal to look back on that time...
Praying for Tripp's family...
Oh, I pleaded with the Lord. I made so many bargains with Him if he would just make this nightmare go away. I knew better than to try and bargain with the Lord but I was desperate. It's amazing what we'd do for our children. Praying for your family and Tripps.
I have so many thoughts as I read this. It brings so many memories of my pregnancy with Teagan. The fear, hope, prayers... so many emotions. You definitely did everything you could for sweet Kael and are a wonderful mother! Hugs!
Sometimes I can't even imagine knowing before. All though sometimes I wish I did, because it totally hit us like a TON of bricks. Thinking everything is fine and 2 months later burying your baby was something I didn't even fathom. You guys are awesome. Love hearing the story in more detail.
Like Alesha, I can't imagine knowing before hand...not sure what would be harder. Love the way you wrote you feelings about finding out and dealing with the aftermath. Kael has such great parents!!
I didn't have much time in the "waiting" area. I didn't know how soon that my son would be present with the Lord. That is something I really struggle with. I can only imagine you pleading with the Lord for healing. I am so so sorry. The loss is so hard to read about....
I'm glad that you have continued in this walk with us...
I did a lot of research during my waiting, wanting to know as much as I could. I think we want to do as much as we can for our babies, even when there is not much we can do.
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