Kaels Christmas!!

Its hard to believe another Christmas has passed with out Kael. This was the 3rd year we have been missing someone. I was a bit of a wreck on a few occasions but did my best to hold it together. I sure miss that little boy. His big brown eyes, the smile we got to see  on a few occasions and the sweet spirit he had. It was so strong, there was no way he wasn't a angel. We decorated his grave as a family and talked about the times while he was here, the boys were eager to help decorate it and were so cute wishing him a Merry Christmas, blowing him kisses and telling him they missed him. I got the idea to write letters to Kael in his stocking which was such a great idea! Kael got about 20 letters or pictures from friends and family alike. It was so nice reading them Christmas night and knowing that Kael is not forgotten. That is one of my biggest fears.. that others will forget. The letters helped me to know that is not the case and that others do think of him! They were so sweet and especially written for him! One of the greatest gifts I got this year was a friend of mine from work went to the festival of Trees and bought a center piece to give to us for Christmas this year. It is beautiful and it reminds me of Kael. In Santa's sleigh it has a little dog which I'm sure Kael would love if he were still here. It meant so much to me she thought of us and did this for our family! The gift of her remembering and also that she would donate to such a amazing hospital in honor of Kael warmed my heart! I hope Christmas in heaven was a blast Kael. I picture Kael hugging Jesus on his birthday.. what a sight that must be. Im sure there was music and lots of angels surrounding. I will do better each day to do my best so one day we can all be together again!! Mommy loves you sweet boy! I hope you had a Merry Christmas and that you felt our love from down here on earth!