Never taking one single breath for granted.... enjoying the journey one day at a time!
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brigette
I am married to an amazing man we celebrated our 11 year anniversarry in April. We have 6 amazing children 4 here on earth with us and 2 angels in heaven (Kael who passed away at 5 months 3 weeks old and an early miscarriage baby at 7 weeks old. Just taking life one day at a time. Never take anything for granted!
Have you ever felt lost, wondering why things are the way they are. Have you ever felt like you've been dealt enough and much more will break you? Have you ever questioned the things you have done in life and hoped you did them all right? Have you ever felt broken, confused and questioning? Yea that's been me the past few days. I'm not sure how I got in this slump and I really want to get out so if any of you have any ideas that would be WONDERFUL!! I came across this song and it rang so true to me! I am jealous of the angels that are with you right now. The missing is so great, the pain super raw the thoughts that are racing through my brain are insane. I sometimes wish I knew what I have done to get dealt these crappy cards and say I'M SORRY!! Now don't get me wrong I have plenty of great, amazing, wonderful things in my life and I wouldn't trade them all for anything I just wish sometimes it could be easier. That it wouldn't always be so tricky. I wonder how long I will feel this. My brain has been running through all the things in life I have been through so many hard times and trials yet at the same time so many great things as well. I do my best to slap on a happy face and act as though things are always perfect and just as they should be but sometimes I just need to give in to the fact that they aren't perfect and crappy things happen!! Tonight's one of those hard nights. Hopefully I will wake in the morning feeling much happier, more positive and better! If any one has any ideas throw them my way!! I hate this feeling. I have been trying to run it off, been running faster and harder than I ever have before I think I'm trying to run away from it all and it helps believe me it does it helps me to put things into perspective and to be more grateful! I am hoping to run a 10k at the end of June! Here's to good running, hopefully a good night of sleep and a better tomorrow!
P.S. thanks for all the help with the videos it seems to have worked perfectly tonight! Dont forget to stop my play list before you play the video otherwise it sounds really silly :)
Wow that song was really beautiful!!!! I am so very sorry your in a rough spot. I wish I could take you to lunch and give you a big hug. My heart hurts for you I know that those dark days are hard. I will be praying for your peace and comfort. I know you know this but just remember it will get better again, these dark moments come then the sun returns.(BIG HUGS) my friend.
Thinking of you a lot this week. Sorry, sending thoughts of love and prayers for you. Someone donated stuffed animals to the NICU this week. I got to pass out a few to some 26 weeker families with siblings. Also worked with the hospital to let them know they would be there for families dealing with a loss. Thanks for all you do and all of your amazing ideas. It really makes a difference.
Brigette, I'm so sorry. I hate these ruts. I wish I could tell you a trick to get out of them, but I have yet to learn it. I think God understands if we need to vent some anger about these hardships. And He loves us no matter what. I pray for peace for you. Hugs mama.
I am sorry that you are in a funk. I don't know any trick to get out of them myself either. I do think that sometime we have to work our way out slowly...thinking of you and hoping that things get better really fast ((hugs))
04-12-08 to 10-04-08 Such a sweet boy and is missed every day! Not a day goes by that we dont think of Kael. We are living our lives the best as possible in hopes to be together with him again one day.
Daxton
Daxton 10 such a sweet little boy!! He is in the 2nd grade and so smart. He stuns me everyday with the things that he knows and is learning. He is so loving, patient and calm. We are lucky to call him our own.
Stefon
Stefon is 8. Hes very sweet but can be mischevious as well! He is in the first grade this year and is excelling at school. We love him to pieces.
Landon
Landon our rainbow baby. He turned 5 on the 12 of August. He is so sweet and has such a spunky personality. He melts my heart and has brought some sunshine back into our lives.
Tiara
Tiara is two and a spunky little girl she is. She is such a figther and an example to us of a true hero. We are so thankful that she joined our family we love her to pieces!
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Wow that song was really beautiful!!!! I am so very sorry your in a rough spot. I wish I could take you to lunch and give you a big hug. My heart hurts for you I know that those dark days are hard. I will be praying for your peace and comfort. I know you know this but just remember it will get better again, these dark moments come then the sun returns.(BIG HUGS) my friend.
Thinking of you a lot this week. Sorry, sending thoughts of love and prayers for you. Someone donated stuffed animals to the NICU this week. I got to pass out a few to some 26 weeker families with siblings. Also worked with the hospital to let them know they would be there for families dealing with a loss. Thanks for all you do and all of your amazing ideas. It really makes a difference.
Brigette, I'm so sorry. I hate these ruts. I wish I could tell you a trick to get out of them, but I have yet to learn it.
I think God understands if we need to vent some anger about these hardships. And He loves us no matter what. I pray for peace for you. Hugs mama.
Beautiful song, thank you so much for sharing it!
I am sorry that you are in a funk. I don't know any trick to get out of them myself either. I do think that sometime we have to work our way out slowly...thinking of you and hoping that things get better really fast ((hugs))
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