Kaels Christmas

On Christmas Eve the kids decided they wanted to light candles for Kael since he couldn't be here with us. Each of them lit a candle and Stefon even decorated it with some beads and a letter K for Kael. It was such a sweet gesture. They love their brother and miss him so much!! We went and decorated Kaels grave each of our boys picked a thing for the grave, my mom sent a bear and Layne's mom sent a penguin and Layne and I picked a poinsetta for the grave. A friend of ours another BLM also sent a little reindeer for the grave. It all looked so perfect together. We spent awhile at the cemetery and let the kids talk to Kael they wished him a Merry Christmas and said that they loved him. We blew him kisses and told him to have a good Christmas in heaven with Jesus on his special birthday. Daxton asked me is Santa visits heaven and I told him I was sure that he did. I spent lots of the day thinking about Kael and heaven trying to picture what he looks like today, how happy he must be to be free and no longer in pain. I hope that we are making him proud down on earth and that he knows how much we love and miss him. Layne and I have plans for next year to do things in honor of Kael and his legacy and to try and help out others in the same situations as we are... Here's to hoping that our plans go smoothly and that we do just a little bit of good in Kaels name. Merry Christmas Kael!! We love and miss you daily!!