Thankful

Today is Thanksgiving and my heart is in many places. I have so many things to be thankful for the list could go on and on. I am ever grateful for my family my sweet husband and my amazing kids. I am thankful for my parents and siblings even though we don't all always see eye to eye. I am ever grateful for the BLM community. I have met so many amazing people here that are so loving and supportive and non-judgmental. I am thankful that I have a great job, a warm house to live in and a car to drive. I'm thankful for music and the peace it can bring sometimes. I am thankful for yummy chocolate and Swedish fish and warm chicken noodle soup. I am thankful for so many things these are just a few. As I go though today I think about all these things and still cant pass that feeling of the missing link. How today would be so different if Kael were here. All I can do it send love to him though heavenly father and tell him to give him a great big kiss for me. Well visit his grave today and send him lots of love. Ill remember him all day and all the memories we have of him. 2 years later I still don't understand but I am trying to give all my faith to the lord and know that he is safe and warm. I am thankful that one day I will see him again and be able to love him and hold him and kiss him for ever and ever and never have to give him up or let him go again. For this I am to thankful. Sad that I don't have him to hold but happy to know that the lord is holding him now for me and showing him all of our love. I hope you all have a happy and safe Thanksgiving. Thank you all for being in my life. I love and appreciate you all.