Thanksgiving...

So many things to be thankful for!! All though times are tough there are still so many things that are AMAZING and BEAUTIFUL in my life. My precious little family I love each of my boys with all of my heart. I am beyond thankful for them and all that they teach me each day!! Thankful for my hubby who works hard to take care of us and will do anything for us. Thankful for an amazing job with benefits for when we need to have care from a doctor or hospital. Thankful for all of the modern day medicine/machines that we have these days so we can check in on this beautiful growing baby in my belly. I am thankful for her sweet kicks that I get more and more of each day to know that she is alive and growing in there. Thankful for a warm room over our heads, food to eat, a car to get us around and for all of the amazing friends and extended family in my life. I have truly been blessed to have some great people surrounding me to help me in the good and bad times. I am thankful for the knowledge of a loving Father in Heaven I have certainly felt him near these past few weeks and I am thankful for  the hopes that one day we will be united with our precious Kael what a joyous day that will be!!  Life is good with so much to be thankful for!! Yesterday we spent time with just our little family in the morning and then spent the afternoon into the night with Layne's family. Its always fun to be around them and catch up. On Sunday my family will have their dinner and we will be together as well. Another year gone by, some ups, some downs some in betweens yet a life filled with love and thankfulness!! I pictured the kids thankful plates everytime I see them I smile. :)

Holidays.....

I feel like I go through this every year but this year it seems a little bit more present. I have a mix of emotions of gratitude and yet sadness still creeps in. Being pregnant this year for sure is not helping my crazy out of line emotions. I hate even typing it because I dont want people to think I am ungrateful because quite the opposite I am very but when it all sinks in the hurting is just a little more this time of year. It hit me hard for the first time yesterday as I was helping out in Stefons class for their Thanksgiving Party. As I walked out to head home when it was over I broke down into tears. I so wish Kael were here to celebrate the holidays with us. I miss his sweet little face, the noises he made, taking care of him and his sweet smell that was like no other. His funny redish hair that would go all over the place and how much his brothers loved and took care of him. We were making Thankful plates for craft time the other day and the boys all picked what they were going to write. It made my heart melt that the first thing Daxton and Stefon said was for their brother Kael. I love that they remember him and that they keep him in their hearts. I know he watches over them and helps to keep them safe. I will have to post pictures of the plates they turned out so cute their thankful list was amazing and really made me smile. Im trying to focus all of my energy on the good not let the sad and hurt seep in but once in a while it breaks through the surface and reminds me of how present it still is. I wouldnt trade the world for the time we had Kael here I am just selfish and wish it were for a little bit longer. I pray that the holidays are gentle on all of my family and friends it can certainly be a hard time! Happy Thanksgiving!!

Skate Night with the school

Last night the boys school had free skate night at The Classic Fun Center. We decided it would be fun to take the boys. When we got there it turned out to be so much more than just skating, the had a jungle gym that was huge, a big set of bounce houses and 2 different skate rings and lots of games to play to earn tickets. The boys ran into alot of their friends and took off playing they were great sports to let Landon tag along. They were so cute helping him up into the jungle gym and holding his hand while he skated. It was a really fun night and a great way to spend our Friday evening together!!

Weekend Getaway.

Last weekend Layne's work flew our out to Oregon for their annual service weekend retreat. It is always super nice and all expenses paid. This year was no different. They put us up at the Hood at Mt. Fort. It was beautiful. Our rooms were amazing as usual, the food was great and the entertainment was so much fun. Friday when we got there we had lunch, met up with all of the other workers and hung out after dinner they had a fun little party where everyone gets together and playes games, watches movies etc then we headed back to relax and enjoy the fireplace in our room. . Saturday they had a big buffet for breakfast then we had the choice to play in a poker tournament or do what we liked until the big dinner. Layne and I aren't great at poker so we decided to spend the afternoon just us. We went back to the room to relax for a while, watched a few movies then decided to go to the hot tub. It was a beautiful setting, it was outdoors amongst the beautiful scenery but the water just hot enough to keep us warm and massage our backs for a good hour. The nice thing was it wasn't to hot for the baby so I got to enjoy as well. Once done we headed back and got ready for the dinner. They had a huge banquet with amazing food, gave away prizes and talked about the company success. Once done they had dueling pianos for entertainment which was a blast. People requesting songs, singing along it really was so much fun and we stayed up much to late. So Sunday morning came we slept in till 10 which is almost unheard of when we have the kids then we got up got ready and headed over for another yummy breakfast, we went to the gift shop to get the boys their prizes and headed back to the airport. We watched the football games and had snacks there until it was time to come back home. It was such a nice, fun relaxing weekend and such an amazing thing that Layne's company does to say thanks for all of their hard work and give a little back!

Halloween

Halloween this year was hectic, crazy and fun!!! My 3 little dudes were a dragon, a cop, and a ghost buster. Its so fun each year seeing what they will pick to be. On Tuesday night we went to my work party. The kids always get tons of candy, its indoor and they also get to go through a spook house, air hockey, table soccer,  color and karaoke. They always love to visit my work. On Wed it was the parade at the boys school, I helped in Stefons class party, we went and visited lots of family so the boys could show off their costumes and then headed home to meet up with cousins and friends to go trick or treating. Layne brought home Chinese food which was amazing and totally hit the spot! Due to Stefons recent surgery he wasn't able to walk much so we pulled him in the wagon. We went all around Bountiful which the people here are crazy they give out full size candy bars, king size candy bars, stuffed animals, ramen noodles etc. My kids loot this year is totally INSANE! I think we will be donating some to a local shelter or something. It was alot of fun though and such nice weather this year! I love the holidays. Family time is irreplaceable to me!

Stefons emergency surgery

A week ago Thursday night we went to Laynes moms house as usual for Thursday dinner. When we got there Stefon had been sleeping for 2 hours and not acting like his normal self. Layne and I talked to him for about 20 minutes and couldn't get anything out of him. Finally Layne started pointing to different things on his body and pressing a bit on his tummy to see if it hurt when we did it to his left side nothing when we did it to his right side he said ouch and about 2 mins later puked everywhere. So we thought ok maybe he has the flue. We got him all cleaned up and left him resting on the chair while we ate. When it got time to go home and for Stefon to move he couldn't he cried out so hard it was killing him to move even a inch. Layne carried him to the car and we headed to take the other 2 boys home and Stefon to Insa Care we knew something was wrong. When we got there the evaluated him he couldnt walk on his own and had a slight fever. The doctor at the kids care normally works up at Primary Children's and said we needed to go there right away he was sure it was Stefons appendix. We drove up there Stefon crying the whole way each time we hit a bump. The kids care had called ahead and got us right back. They right away drew his blood and then sent him in for a ultrasound. They could see right away on the ultrasound that his appendix was really inflamed they brought in the head radiologist to check and for sure they were right. Stefon had appendicitis and would need surgery soon. At this point it was about 11:30 pm. The surgeons came in let us know we would be admitted right away and that surgery would be at 9 am. They showed us a video of 2 different ways they could do the surgery the old fashioned way or laprascopic which would have 3 different incisions but not nearly as big. That's the way we decided to go. They sent us upstairs for the night and got Stefon on some antibiotics right away. They made sure to keep him on pain meds and fluids all night. Even with the pain meds it was a long night! Poor guy couldn't sleep more than about an hour. He had me lay in his bed with him and hold him. It was so sad seeing him in such pain. At 9 am they came to get us and bring us down. Its amazing the emotions that ran through me the whole stay that same er room, surgery hall, drop off point. the smells my little brain was everywhere!! They said the surgery would take about an hour. The doctor came back in to get me once it was done and said his appendix was huge and that we were super lucky it hadn't burst! Talk about blessings I am so happy that it didn't burst. Stefon woke up in a lot of pian they had to re medicate him 4 times before he woke up semi ok and able to go back up to our room. Through out the day he had lots of visitors and people coming to check in on him and bring him prizes and stuff he was such a trooper. We stayed the night one more time and the next day around 11 am they released him. Things have been pretty sore for him even still today but he is making great progress and is recovering well. I am so thankful for doctors and modern day medicine that helped to make him feel so much better. It was quite the few days but I am thankful we had the right resources and help to pull him through!!

Family Trip to the Pumpkin Patch

We met up with our friends the Websters and went to this fun Pumpkin Patch in Farmington. Layne pulled Landon in the little wagon for a while and the boys each needed a turn to pull the wagon to. It was funny as the wagon was twice their size. The boys looked around for their perfect pumpkin and once they found it put it in the wagon. They each picked a little one for Kaels grave as well. Once we paid there was this little corn maze that the kids ran around in for a while and we chatted it up with our friends all along dotting on their new little guy Tracker. He was so stinking cute!! Once the kiddos got worn out and cold we headed out to dinner. It was such a fun night catching up and finally meeting their sweet baby boy!! They are such great friends and people it is a joy to be around them!!

Field Trip to the Pumpin Patch

The Wed before Halloween Landons class went to the Pumpkin Patch. It was fun to tag along and see his cuteness and excitement. There was a little tipee that we all went in while the teacher read a story and the kids sang a few songs. Then they got cupcakes and juice. Once everyone was done the kids got to go out looking around and pick their favorite pumpkin. It was such a fun time!!