Rainbows....

I have started this post and deleted it at least 5 times over the past few weeks. I know part of my audience severely struggles with this and I never would want to hurt any feelings. To those lovely ladies I hope you will still continue on with me during this journey and though the continuous grief journey. I wish I could hug each of you and tell you for sure you are next. I love you all so much and am so thankful for all of you!! I found out 6 weeks ago that I am pregnant. Today I am 10 weeks and a day along. I usually find out quick as I get super sick right from the get go. This time hasn't been as bad but I still am feeling the effects. I wont complain though not a ounce as I know it could be much, much worse! I have been to the doctor 2 times thus far once at 8 weeks 2 days and just yesterday at 10 weeks.  The first picture is at 8 weeks 2 days, the second is at 10 weeks. The baby is looking good, heart beat is at 150 and it is measuring exact to my dates. I am so thankful to the lord for every day that I get with this little blessing. As to be expected I am worrying my brains out as I know all to well that it doesn't always go as expected. All I can do is trust in the lord that this little baby will join our family healthy and happy. I am lucky enough to go back to the doctor who delivered my other babies and knows Kaels story to a T. We will be watching this little one very closely and as it comes time for our 20 week scan I will go back to the specialist who watched us all through out our last 14 weeks with Kael. If the scan looks good we will just continue on as normal through out the remainder of the pregnancy. He mostly is sending me there for my scan for peace of mind as he knows how stressed out I get. For a repeat of what happened with Kael the chances are slim to none but alas they are still there and he wants to ease my mind. I cant believe we are on this journey again for a while there I thought it might never happen again.. I am not the most patient person in the world. Now I just sit back and do my darnedest to keep this baby safe and healthy. I thank the lord every night and beg Kael to watch over his little sibling and to keep them safe. I am ever grateful for this little life to join our family!