Happy 4th birthday Kael... Whatd id say if you were here.

Dear Kael,

Its your 4th birthday today. My how time has flown by quick! I remember the day you were born like it was yesterday. When we first heard you cry, the few seconds I got to hold you before the whisked you away, meeting some very nice doctors who were going to help you it was such a whirl wind! We were so happy you were here though and wouldn't have traded you for the world! You surprised us and came 6 weeks early. We knew you'd be early but didn't expect it quite that soon but glad you were here non the less. What a crazy whirl wind the last 4 years have brought. Today I want to remember the good times. We were so lucky to get to spend 5 months and 3 weeks and 3 days with you. Those moment we treasure. We have lots of pictures to remember the good times and the things we were able to do while you were here. I cant help but try and picture what you'd look like and be doing today. I'm sure you'd be handsome just like your brothers. You had the big brown eyes and that cute little smile. Would you have grown our of your chubbiness or would you still have those little rolls around your ankles and wrists? I think about the things you might be doing at this age. I'm sure it would  have been different than what most 4 year olds would be doing but we would love you and be proud of you no matter what... Who am I kidding we are proud of you. The things that you brought to our family and taught us are AMAZING. You showed us the real meaning of love, you taught us to live in the moment, how to be more patient, more kind more giving and understanding. You taught us how to fight and never give up! You were such a strong little boy and fought so hard to stay with us as long as you could!  Through you I have met several amazing women and families. Bless each of their hearts for being in my life. They are so caring, and they remember you and can relate with me. I love each of them. I hope you are having the best birthday in heaven with cake and balloons, music, dancing hugs and kisses from our loved ones that are there with you and a big hug from Jesus himself. I hope you catch our balloons tonight and see the night lanterns. We will be sending kisses and hugs with our balloons. Please know how much we love you and how grateful we are that one day we will all be together again! Be close today if you can. I love it when I can feel you near. Thank you for all that you have taught me and for being ours! You are amazing, you are strong, you are our example. We love you!! Happy Birthday Kael!