Landons update

So Landon turned 6 months old on the 12th. I took him to the doctor for his well check and shots. He is 15 lbs 13 oz which is 20% for weight and hes 27 inches which is 50% for his age. I had his pics done on Monday here are a few that I have back so far. I cant believe hes growing up so fast. Its bitter sweet. I love that hes so happy. Smiles and laughs at his brothers, rolls both ways. scoots with his feet and is just about ready to crawl. He is a blessing I love him so much.

DREAMS......

Ok so a few nights ago I had a dream.... its not often that I have this kind of dream matter of fact its only happened a few other times.... I dreamt about Kael. He was a bit older then when he passed away in fact he was riding on a bus to school.... I met him there with his teacher and we talked about how well he was doing considering the circumstances... I got to hold him, hug him and dance around with him. When school was done he gave me a big smile and went away on the bus again... it was then that I woke up. I immediately got up and went to check on my other 3 boys. Ensuring they were all there and ok I went back and laid in bed. I laid for hours wondering and thinking what it would be like now if Kael were still here. He would be almost 2 years old. What would his life have been like... what would our lives look like? Its stayed with me for a few days so I wanted to write it down so I didn't forget... so what does this all mean? I don't know. What I do know is that we have to take every day like its our last! Tell the ones you love them how much you do. Hold your kids a little longer and dance with them sing to them.... hold them extra tight and be grateful for what you have!!

Thoughts

So on Monday I went to register Daxton for Kinedergarten. Part of the registration process is to take in their birth certificates so I did. Registration went well so on Wednesday I went to put Daxs birth certificate back in our folder that contains them all what I came across next set me back a bit and took my breath away... there was Kaels birth certificate and also death certificate.... All I could do was sit there for a minute so many thoughts ran through my head. It is still a shock to me some days that my precious little Kael is gone. Even though its been a year and a half it still seems so surreal. So many memories went through my head... having Kael all that time we spent in the hospital the one BYU football game we got to take him to and the morning that we found him cold in his crib.... I remember that day like it was yesterday I wont blog about it now but it sure made for a interesting day yesterday. I cant believe that my oldest is big enough to start Kindergarten and that I have a baby in heaven.... Life is so interesting sometimes!

Valentines Party

So on Tuesday I got to stay with the boys at preschool for their Valentines day party. They had so much fun. They played Valentiens bingo, exchanged Valentines they had made a cute mailbox and then had a fun little lunch. They love when I get to stay with them Stefon said "mommy thank you for staying at my party with me". I sure love that they get to have these experiences. Below are a few pictures.

starting my blog....

Ok so here I am starting my own blog. My hubby started a blog a few years ago but hasnt kept up on it so I figured I would start my own blog so I could have a place to write about stuff going on in our lives and feelings and stuff that I am having. So here we go. About myself. Ive been married to my wonderful husband for almost 6 years I love and appreciate him so much. He is amazing and does so much for our family and myself. We have 4 little boys who I love to death. We are lucky to have 3 of them here on earth with us and 1 that left this earth way to soon. Our oldest Daxton is 4 and a half years old. Stefon is 3 and a half and Landon is almost 6 months old. Kael would be 1 and a half he is out sweet baby in heaven. Kael passed away at 5 months 3 weeks just 8 short days of being 6 months old of a neuromuscular condtion. He was an amazing little boy who I miss dearly. I will mention him often and come around his "anniversaries" I will tell more of his story. He has changed our lives more than any one can know. I am so greatful for the time we got with him and that he was part of our lives. I am greatful for all 4 of our boys and cherish them dearly every day! So that pretty much sums it up for now. I will do my best to post often!! Heres to good readings!!