Today youd be 5......... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Dear Kael....

Has it really been 5 years since that amazing morning you were born? My mind keeps floating there today. You surprised us and came early and quick!!!! Ill never forget that moment you arrived in the world I was so happy that you let out a cry. I cant believe it has really been 5 years. Sometimes it seems to fly by and other times it seems so long ago. Its amazing with the birth of you baby sister I can feel you near. I need that and am so grateful for it. Please stay close continue to keep us safe! I try and picture who you'd be today. It doesn't seem real that you would be starting Kindergarten in the fall and that you'd be learning to read and write your name, do you learn those things up in heaven or do you already know everything that you need to know? I can only imagine the big brother you would have been. I know you are being an amazing brother from heaven though! Thank you for watching over us. It is quite the thing to have an angel in heaven! I hope that you are having the celebration of a lifetime! I hope you are having cake and balloons and the party for a king. You sure deserve it!! I miss you so much I wish I could just give you a squeeze. Do you feel my hugs and kisses from heaven? I send them to you all of the time. I hope that you are happy and healthy and strong. Thank you for your love, thank you for picking us, thank you for your example and everything that you have taught us and continue to teach us. Thank you for being you and fighting as hard as you did. Thank you for your love and amazing smile. Thank you for your big brown eyes and for the great memories that we made. A big HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you sweet son! I love you to the moon and back!! Catch our balloons today they will be filled with lots of love and kisses!! Love always Mommy!! xoxoxo

Introducing......

Tiara Brigette Rushworth

April 2, 2013

3:06pm

7 lbs. 1 oz.

19.5 inches long.

So far things are going very well. She was able to poop on her own, eating like a champ and breathing great. We are feeling very blessed. We are smitten, we are so in love!!! More updates to come as we have them. Since her arrival I have been thanking  the lord over and over again. I know kael was with her as ahe entered this earth. I'm sure he protected her the whole way down. Thank you all for your love and support and prayers!!

Easter 2013 style.

Easter is such an amazing holiday I love the fun that comes with it but also the true meaning behind it. Ever since Kael passed away its more significant than it was for me before. I though alot yesterday about the real reason for the holiday and what is means to us. We talked to the boys about it as well. We made sure they still had all the fun but also understood what the real reason behind it is. Where would we be with out Christ? I thanked him all day for all of the many blessings we have, begged him to keep Kael safe and to send our baby girl down safe and sound. We are so close now I can taste it. I am scared to death but excited out of my mind as well. I know it will all work out according to Gods plan... I just hope that it is smooth as possible for us! We had a fun busy Easter. On Saturday my family had our party which we did at the park a fun picnic lunch, Easter egg hunt and lots of swinging, cops and robbers and slides. On Sunday we woke up to find that the Easter bunny had left eggs all over the house, the kids found their baskets as well as a fun thing called A Pass of All Passes so we can have endless fun this summer! I'm so excited. We chilled in the morning just taking it easy I even took a nap with Landon and then we headed to Layne's moms for their Easter Dinner and a fun egg hunt with all of the cousins as well. Once we left there we headed out to Bountiful to visit Kael at the cemetery and drop off all of his Easter stuff. We stayed for a while and then headed home. It was a beautiful weekend filled with lots of family and building fun memories!

The nursery

Well now that we are so close to having this precious little girl we figured it was time to get the nursery all put together. We are within days of meeting our precious little baby and I can hardly believe it! Yesterday at the doc I was dilated to a 4 and 80% thinned out. I have lost my mucus plug and my blood pressure is up 25 points so they are watching me closely. We shall see how the next few days goes. I love how her nursery turned out though and cant wait to see her cute self in it!

Family shower

Last Saturday Layne's Aunt Kay and cousins Jodee and Tammie threw me a baby shower. It was put together so nicely. They made this beautiful diaper cake, had delicious food (crepes with all kind of toppings and slush), put together these cute water bottles with a precious saying and then did a few fun guessing games and had the guests decorate onezies and burp clothes for us. They seriously are the kindest, most giving people I know. They have always been great to Layne and I and the boys. When Layne and I couldn't be at the hospital with Kael they would go sit with him, hold him and visit. Their hearts are the size of mountains I tell you they are simply amazing. We were blessed to have lots of family come from my side as well as Layne's and this little girl was showered with more loving! She seriously is one very, very loved little girl. We are getting so close to meeting her I just cant wait!!

VZW egg hunt

Last week my work had our first annual egg hunt. Me along with about 15 other sups spent a Friday stuffing 10,000 eggs and had the employees bring their kids for a egg hunt. They all got sectioned off into age groups so no one would get trampled and the let the kids loose. The eggs had candy and some of them had golden tickets for prizes. The kids also got tattoos prior to the egg hunt. The boys had so much fun getting all of the eggs they filled their baskets full and then once they were done they had a good time opening them up to see what was inside. Landon is the only one who got a golden ticket. He was so happy about it and cute running to the table to get his prize. He got a JUMBO spider man coloring book and a box of crayons. It was so much fun!! I love that my company does so many family filled events around holiday times. It makes a so much fun!!

Luck O the Irish

I like to make each holiday special for the kiddos. Even though St.Patricks Day isn't a huge one we still like to do things and have fun. This year the Leprechaun came to visit. he left his green feet prints all over the house which led the boys to a pot of gold and some toys. We went and had family breakfast at I Hop, did some shopping and then spent the afternoon at the park. We ordered pizza for dinner and had a movie night to end the night out. It was so much fun to see the looks on the boys face when they woke up in the morning. I love the surprised looks and how happy they get. It sure is fun being a mom! I am so thankful that I have that opportunity!